Reconciliation….

Sometimes when I try to analyze myself, I found everything average about me.. an average look, average height. Intelligence, from an average family..average skill and of course an average luck…

And I am always stuck in the luck..

Is this all average things are due to my luck.. or any of these could be more of less than average..

Sometimes I think of doing something to change my ‘ohh so average’ lifestyle.. Sometimes to degrade the emotional value.. Sometimes to upgrade my skills..

I always thought that my qualities are above average.. but I keep waiting for someone in my life to pull them up..but unfortunately, being an emotional fool, always end up in sacrificing many of them on the way of making my loved ones happy..

Recently I found that writing a blog is in fashion..

Why do people write a blog..

For some of them it’s a easy way to use their creativity.. appreciate it, for some of them to show there intellect..( where sometimes its only show off) , for others it seems to be totally personal.. and at the same time also like to socialize their personal life.. and for some morons to manipulate others life and hurting others emotions..

Then why me…

I m not a creative person, neither intellect, No t a social person, and I m sure hardly anybody will know or read my blog.. as I m not going to do any self advertisement of this.. And surely any of them are never so influenced by me to be manipulated .

So why m I writing these blogs..

I m a very introvert.I hardly talk to a stranger.. i don’t like ‘OHH SS CHweet ..honey’ kindda appreciation to my most hated friends.. so sometimes I feel that I am left alone and hold back by my hopeless genuine expressions to others,,,.. i would rather solicit loneliness than to be with some social animal who are more interested in showing off their happiness in social network..

Then I thought why not a diary,,,?

Diary is taken too be too personal.. I don’t like that either..

So my blog is for myself..Anyone pass by unknowingly,, I don’t mind.

So in the name of my Fairy.. I m going to note down some of my pent up emotions only for myself..

This will help my analyze my strength and weakness and also to upgrade or degrade them..

I wish all the best to myself.. I wish I can treat myself in a fair way.