Loving myself

Loving myself...

Few years back, when I was getting ready to go out somewhere; I was asked by someone close to me. … “Why you are so concerned about wearing a lip colour or choosing your dress while going out?” And this person also generalized to ask me.. Why u girls are so concerned about what other people say about your outfit and dresses…. Of course the intension was humiliation.

That time my answer was … ‘no I don’t want to look good or presentable for others , but I do it for myself.’

And they reply was a good mockery…

It was few years back and I was feeling very irritated as It was hurting my selfrespect.

It’s been quite some time from that incidence. During these years I have gone through many ups and downs of my life; starting from flying in seventh heaven with my love and spending sleepless lonely nights.

Throughout the whole time, I managed to dress good, wear my favorites colour lipstick, and singing my favorite music loudly, roaming around and to do everything that I enjoy to do with myself.

Although it was not always successful all the time but yes, I always intend to do so…

Because I loved myself…. I did not compromise in many circumstances.

Because I loved myself….I did not fake my emotions.

Because I loved myself…..In many times I was recognized by my loved ones to be selfish, self centered and arrogantly self independent.

But I still loved myself. Although I am always taught in books is that love is for others. I still want to say everyone that please love yourself. Because you are the only person who can understand yourself… believe every truth of your life…. Otherwise most of the times we waste our time in convincing others what really we are.

Now for the people who have started abusing me be to be selfish and self centered; I want to elaborate what I really mean by saying loving myself.

Love myself means believe in my principles and ideas and to find a reason to believe in me.

To walk in my path even if I don’t get favorite company all the time..

To learn enjoy doing things even if I m not appreciated.( provided what I m doing is harmless)

And above all to express my believes without going to the calculation of loss and gain.

By loving myself I prevent myself to be a beautifully wrapped gift box to someone having some waste inside.

Self love brings self respect to me.

Self love also brings self confidence to me.

Self love gives me the opportunity to cherish myself for who I am. Besides the flaws and deficiencies in me, I want to be proud of my values in life and get the strength to keep those values in me in any damn circumstance.

Many times I was distracted from my values and principles in virtue of fulfilling others’ dreams. And after these years I have learned that sacrifice is not the highest thing to do for someone u love. Its better way to put your ideas and opinion rather than to make someone happy at the cost of your self-respect.

The thin line between self love and arrogance is very crucial. I think I have become wise enough to understand those moments when I crossed the line in my past, and I always want to keep rectify those mistakes.

That way I came to know about my deficiencies. And I accepted all of them. I know it is a never ending process and in my future I m going to pass through hurdles.. And my experiences will teach me many lessons about life. But despite of all I want to continue to love myself. I believe God loves people who love themselves.

I m what I am only because I love myself and I will always do.